Just For Today Meditations for 2009

[Angel09]

I often feel sad about all the childhood dreams, I had missed. Not just because of my drinking and drugging but because of the dysfunction I came from and was never nurtured in that way. But I know I have to let go of that self-pity because I could drown in it. I must only live in today and be grateful for the things I have now.

[Butterfly Woman]

And the good news, Angel, is that on this jounrey we get to grow up all over again

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June 10
Changing motives

“When we finally get our own selfish motives out of the way, we begin to find a peace that we never imagined possible.”

Basic Text, p. 45

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As we examine our beliefs, our actions, and our motives in recovery, we’ll find that sometimes we do things for the wrong reasons. In our early recovery, we may have spent a great deal of money and time on people, wanting only for them to like us. Later on, we may find that we still spend money on people, but our motives have changed. We do it because we like them. Or perhaps we used to get romantically involved because we felt hollow inside and were seeking fulfillment through another person. Now our reasons for romantic involvement are based in a desire to share our already rewarding lives with an equal partner. Maybe we used to work the steps because we were afraid we’d relapse if we didn’t. Today we work the steps because we want to grow spiritually.

We have a new purpose in life today, and our changing motives reflect that. We have so much more to offer than our neediness and insecurities. We have developed a wholesomeness of spirit and a peace of mind that moves our recovery into a new realm. We extend our love and share our recovery with complete generosity, and the difference we make is the legacy we leave to those who have yet to join us.

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Just for today: In recovery, my motives have changed. I want to do things for the right reason, not just for my personal benefit. Today, I will examine my motives.

[Rusty Zipper]

learning about motives, was and still is a eye opener...

[Angel09]

Quote:And the good news, Angel, is that on this jounrey we get to grow up all over again

THANKS MARE! YOU'RE REALLY SWEET...

[Angelily]

June 11
Living clean

“As we recover, we gain a new outlook on being clean.... Life can become a new adventure for us.”

Basic Text, p. 91

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The using life is not a clean one—no one knows this better than we do. Some of us lived in physical squalor, caring neither for our surroundings nor ourselves. Worse, though, than any external filth was the way most of us felt inside. The things we did to get our drugs, the way we treated other people, and the way we treated ourselves had us feeling dirty. Many of us recall waking too many mornings just wishing that, for once, we could feel clean about ourselves and our lives.

Today, we have a chance to feel clean by living clean. For us addicts, living clean starts with not using—after all, that’s our primary use for the word “clean” in Narcotics Anonymous. But as we stay “clean” and work the Twelve Steps, we discover another kind of clean. It’s the clean that comes from admitting the truth about our addiction rather than hiding or denying our disease. It’s the freshness that comes from owning up to our wrongs and making amends for them. It’s the vitality that comes from the new set of values we develop as we seek a Higher Power’s will for us. When we practice the principles of our program in all our affairs, we have no reason to feel dirty about our lives or our lifestyles—we’re living clean, and are grateful to be doing so at last.

“Clean living” used to be just for the “squares.” Today, living clean is the only way we’d have it.

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Just for today: I feel clean because I’m living clean—and that’s the way I want to keep it.




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[Butterfly Woman]

Keepin it green and keepin it clean

[Rusty Zipper]

today, were no longer square pegs, trying to fit into round holes...

we are now whole!

[Believe808]

Its a great feeling not to need something.
Living clean is good for the soul.

[Rusty Zipper]

you got the rhythm of the flow Bee

nice

[Angel09]

I love feeling clean and refreshed..Physically, Mentally and Spiritually!!