Repeat Offender Luckyv2 AKA Chance AKA Vic

[Luckyv2]

Chance AKA Vic
Well Maybe I should start by giving this site a piece of me personally.

My name is Vic and I am a alcoholics of sorts. I am also what is classified as a "Repent Offender". I have many things that I struggle with in life, many physical, mental, and spiritual issues. I lost many of those things because of my choices in life.

I've been married and divorced three times In my life. The first two marriages didn't even last a year. The third and bless her heart, stayed with me for 15 years. They say that there is the one in your life especially designed for you, and I always thought and still am sure that Shelley was mine. But because of my Alcoholism and the choices that I've made I lost her back in 2001.

That year I was busted for possession of a controlled substance (meth) and armed robbery. I do want you to know right now that I really even don't remember this even up to today. No excuse. I was than in jail back at this time I was making around 120,000 plus a year. We were financially set if I didn't use. During most of our time I was sober, because she said to me one day, "Vic, you can smoke your pot but I don't want you to drink, you turn into someone that I don't want." I kept that promise, and I never did any meth either. Well

Somewhere in July 2000 I started using meth. First hiding it from her than like I am getting her to use with me. I ended up getting busted on the July 0f 2001. I did a plea bargin with the courts and got 3 years of ISP (Intensified Supervised Probation, court cost fees, and a fine. I had one assurance during my probation where I relapsed. I got a sanction on that but I still had to start my sobriety over.

I finished with my out-patient treatment, and continued down to nothing but staying sober. I went to all the meetings I could attend, had bowling parties for our group, went on picknicks just everything you would enjoy doing and I was very happy. I remember when I first got in the program after the wife kicked me out of the house I lived in a two bedroom trailer, trashed, had running water but no gas or electric. So I carried water in, I bought a rec-center pass so I could shower daily, that was like $40.00 for a 3 month pass back than. I did whatever I had to do and I was VERY Happy.

Than my health turned on me and I couldn't work anymore. I've tried and tried to get work but the way it is now, I would have to have a in-home job to make a living which I am trying to do.

woops got side tracked Tongue

Anyways I was sober for 25 months 15 days and so many hours when I relapsed and that wasn't until my Sister Marie who died got taken to Lincoln to the Madonna Rehabilitation Hospital I started to drink a little, and that took me right into Meth. I tried it in Lincoln and didn't get high, I talked with my close mouth friend and he said it was my choice to start my day over or not. I didn't but in November or December after I moved back from Lincoln, (oh yeah I moved there to be closer to her but my breathing couldn't take the humbity) and I went down and got me a bottle of Canadian Springs and a 6 pack of bud bottles. I was smoking pot too also I had to give up my sites cause of this. I once had 6 sites that were doing very well!

So I didn't start using the meth until March or April of this year, but that wasn't my intentions, I went down to buy a 6 pack of beer to call my nerves. Next thing I know is I am shooting up dope after being off of it for long time. I was on it and I wanted to die, homicide, suicide it didn't matter. I just wanted someone to push me off of the fence I was on and I didn't care which side I feel on.

I started running away from me. I was in a place that wasn't good for me to be in. I did a lot of wrong things during this period in which I still could get into a lot of trouble about. But I am not running. I am here. You are here. Now I think this is what you have been wanting from me my friend and I hope that this explains a lot.

I don't want any sympathy. If you look that up in the dictionary it is in between shit and Sisyphus J/K maybe though. So

I asked my case worker and she gave me a couple of website names that she knows is legit and I could get paid for like typing or something for them so I am going to go check that out as well. I just want to be self-supporting the rest of my life, It is my turn to quit taking and start giving.

Thanks for allowing me to share.

With Love and Respect

Retread

Vic

[Butterfly Woman]

Thank You Vic .... Good to see ya back ...It's one thing to share readings with us but it's something else to share you with us.

[Coffeebreath]

Thanks for sharing that Vic, you do have something to give and you did just that. Keep bustin'!

[Believe808]

Vic I'm so glad to finally meet you

Glad you're here and part of my recovery journey.

I hope you will keep sharing with us and join us on other threads.

[Angel09]

Thanks for sharing Vic. I'm glad your back. The way it sounds to me, is that you may not have another recovery left. So, keep coming back!!

Quote:I do want you to know right now that I really even don't remember this even up to today

We may not be responsible, but we are always held accountable...

Love Ya..."The Angel Chic"

[Rusty Zipper]

love the title vic,

and loved your opening up and honesty.



happy you took my sugestion on hanging around here for more then two weeks!

never give up, or give in

now where have i heard that before

[Luckyv2]

(03-05-2010 09:53 PM)Believe808 Wrote:  Vic I'm so glad to finally meet you

Glad you're here and part of my recovery journey.

I hope you will keep sharing with us and join us on other threads.

OMG if I had the time I would maybe someday when I quit trying to be someone important I will have a lot of time.

[kasia9752]

Maybe when you quit trying and stay out of HP's way so he can guide you will. Good to see you're back.

[scaredykat]

I thank you on another forum, but I'll Thank you again for sharing.

So glad your back with us and sharing your ES&H with us.

[NorwalkPhil]

Thanks for sharing, Vic. You are in the right place and definitely are not alone!